Tops, bottoms, verse, verse tops, top verses, verse verses — they are all labels.
If you are a true sexual connoisseur, a true explorer of your sensuality, you will try out everything. So I have been trying to take dick. I first tried two years ago and it was miserable. Lately the results have been…drumroll…what is the big deal? I really don’t crave it.
Me: “This shit still hurts! Take it out! What, that was just the head of your dick! Damn Negro! I thought it was all in! Shit, next time just knock me the fuck out so I can wake up and it’s over — just be sure to put on a condom!”
“You just haven’t met the right man,” friends tell me. “When you do you will flip for your man sometimes.”
“Immanuel, you are hot man. You got a nice black ass back there and a big dick up front. You would be deadly if you were truly versatile.”
The pain sucks. The burning sensation as a penis enters you — it takes my breath away and my body tenses, becoming hard as a rock. It’s like a knife splitting you. Who gets pleasure from this pain? Who can tolerate a man on top of them like that.
The passive role makes me uncomfortable. Who gets fucked in prison movies and HBO’s “Oz”? The weak motherfuckers! Plus I don’t like the loss of control — letting someone invade your body. Fuck this!
Still, deep down I envy masculine dudes that can throw some dick and then turn around and take dick. To me they are sexual supermen. To be able to do that shows, at least to me, a supremely self confident person.
“Relax. Relax,” Miguel said to me the other night (Read more about Miguel and me in “I Had Sex With An (Illegal) Alien”). He may know only 50 words of English but Miguel is a very sensual and patient lover. “How it feel? You like papi?”
“Okay, that’s enough. Take that shit out.” Then I flipped him over and fucked him hard, paying him back for that pain he gave me with that thick dick of his a few minutes before. He must have liked it — he busted his nutt into my sheets in five minutes after I mounted him doggy style.
Maybe if I get a full-time boyfriend I will lay back and take it to please my partner. I have heard of tops who do that in order to battle boredom in the bedroom and keep the lover at home and off Adam4Adam.
Today a buddy gave me this nugget of advice.
“Immanuel, if you think about taking dick even when you are not having sex you really want to bottom.”
“Nah, I never do,” I honestly answer. So I guess that mean this may not be for me.
Q: Readers, I got a lot of questions about this. What is the attraction of bottoming? And to other (mostly) tops, have you tried out bottoming and would you do it for a regular lover? Lastly, is the whole top, bottom, verse labeling obsolete? I have fucked several guys who claim they were tops.